5 months have passed since I blogged properly. In that time I started up a tumblr blog to keep track of the images of cute puppies and kittens that I find myself obsessing over. I have also visited Great Barrier Island, made a short trip to Melbourne and turned 24. There is something I haven’t done, however, and that is paint. I haven’t made any art in the last 3 or 4 months. I haven’t picked up a brush, I haven’t even been into my studio in the last 3 months. I’ve lost my inspiration, lost my ideas, lost the motivation and desire to paint I used to feel so strongly.
I know this post is a little bit personal, but given the fact I don’t think I have all that many followers, its a good way to vent a little bit about the fear I am now feeling regarding my lack of artistic endeavours. It scares me. I want to paint. I even sort of know what kind of things I want to be painting, I just don’t know how to go about translating them into paintings. I think I’m just facing some fear of failure and it doesn’t help that I haven’t seen much success so far. I know no one is to blame for this but myself, and I know the longer I stay out of the studio and inactive in being creative, the worse it will get.
If anyone is reading this, what do you do when you’ve lost motivation and inspiration? How do you get back into being creative without feeling like you’re forcing it?
And because I hate a text only post, here is a sample of the types of pictures I’ve been posting on my tumblr (puppytime.tumblr.com)
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Before my 3 day working weekend, I completed two paintings. The first, I started some weeks ago – it features sewn creatures attached to the canvas. The second: started and finished in the same week.
My panda painting is also currently featured in an exhibition hosted by the Waitakere Trusts. It stands out as being completely unique in the exhibition – but I’m still unsure of whether or not that’s a good thing.
The bunny painting has gone through another reincarnation and is now a continuing work in progress. It currently looks like this:
The inspiration isn’t exactly flowing at the moment. In a few weeks time I’ll be heading to Melbourne for a 2 week pre-Christmas jaunt with Leon. Hopefully I’ll come back with some fresh ideas.
For the past few weeks I’ve been experiencing a severe lack of inspiration and ideas. In the beginning, I’d go into my studio and squeeze out some paint colours, drag my feet around listlessly and eventually paint something onto a canvas – some candy coloured bubbles; a branch; a bush.
This week I have no desire to even do that. It’s been over 5 days since I set foot in my studio, and while I’m planning on going in later today, I’m almost dreading it just because I have no idea what to paint or what I want to paint. I thought it would be easy once I left uni, I thought I’d go in all the time and spend hours painting whatever I wanted, making myself happy and creating paintings that I love. It would seem that this vision was too ideal and that I’d forgotten about the blocks that all artists/writers/creators come up against.
It’s as if there is some sort of barrier in my mind preventing me from just painting, or perhaps even a little bit of fear. It is harder not having a goal to work towards and I’ve never been that great at setting my own goals.
If anyone, creative or otherwise, has ideas on how to break a dry spell, I’d be really grateful.
My cat urges you to help, as he’s sick of all the extra attention he’s getting since I’m spending more time at home.
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